SEED QUESTIONS FOR REFLECTION: How do you relate to Hegedus' definition of purpose as that which we most passionately are when we pay attention to our deepest selves? Can you share a personal experience of being alight with who you are at your core? What helps you to live fully and be alight with who you are?
Awake: A Wake - In fluid dynamics a wake is a region of recirculating flow immediately behind a moving or stationary blunt body, that is accompanied by separation or turbulence.
We may be (a wake) when driven (moving with purpose) or (a wake) when we are still and stationary like a blunt body and observing the flow of life in/out. Its then we can begin to see the separation or turbulence being caused each moment. If we are not observant at the source, then when we realize we are (a wake) we may have gone far away. See the photo of a wake caused in the ocean to get a good idea. Some say the mind is like the ocean. Then being awake (a wake) observing the constant incessant creation of waves and their spread.
As I look inwards I find there is a third dimension. As I begin to awake to the nature of my mind, I find that though I am still, why is it that there are continuous wakes occurring. I would like for the waters to calm down. Then I realize that waves are caused due to the blowing of the wind and the wind is caused due to the heat. As the observing mind (the sun) shines down intensely on the ocean of my own mind and body, the air slows down, because it is just rising upwards with the water vapor. There is intense calmness and very few wakes are formed. I am (a wake) but in a different sense. I am awake to everything that is happening. I feel alight, yet there is nothing to do then to be alight.
I find this sort of awakening to be my deepest self. I allows me to be around people, engaging with them, listening, talking etc. Yet because there is so much heat of observation, there is an intense low pressure within. The winds can blow in from all directions, yet they immediately rise up. This allows for the clouds of rain to form. For the others too to experience being at the source of things.
There is always purpose in being, but not always being in purpose. So true. I agree with Hegedus that our purpose is to passionately be who we are and let go of trying to accomplish some purpose. Pursuit of a purpose often compromises our self. In passionately being who we are, we are not competing, not comparing, not goal directed, and we are being true to ourselves and performing action that is right action in the moment. I have had moments when my speech or action has been fully in synchrony with my real self, not purpose oriented, and I am alight with who I am at my core. What helps me live fully and be alight with who I am is knowing that I am happiest when I engage in my right process and action and let go of concern about outcome. It is the opposite extreme of being political.
The tricky part is to know who you are. who are you really? You are likely not who you think you are (there is too much illusion in there for the least). You are certainly not what others think you are (it is fairly easy to find evidence to support this). Nevertheless, these two sources pretty much are how we operate in daily life. If you do not really know who you are, to whom you would be alright with? :)
Reading this writing took me back when I was 5 years old. Every morning my dad used to chant the song of awakening. It has become a light house for me. The song is in Hindi. " Utha jaag musafir bhore bahi aba rayn kahnatak sovat hai. Jo sovat hai vo khovat hai, jo jagat hai vo pavat hai." Let me translate this song in English.
" Hey traveler, wake up. Morning has dawned. How long will you keep on sleeping? One who wakes up receives blessings and the one who keeps on sleeping misses the Divine gifts."
To me life is a journey, a pilgrimage. We all are pilgrims of light. I am one of the pilgrims walking on my path. There have been times in my life when I took a wrong step. I hurt myself and hurt others close to me and around me. I woke up from my sleep and resumed my walking keeping my inner eyes open. I leaned form my fall. Got up and continued my pilgrimage.
I have learned that light is within me. I do not need to look for it outside of me. The face of light is covered by the veil of my egoic mind. When I become still and open, I discover the light within me and I follow it. Following this light brings joyful bliss in me. It keeps me on the path of love, compassion, and gratitude.I feel free from the grip of the past and the worry about the future. The inner world of worry and missing something takes me away from the Present, which is beyond time and space. Our suffering is created by the mental constructs creating divisiveness in me and others. And I am still journeying living in the here and now. Life is a blessing.
May we walk on the path of life keeping our mind and heart open to be touched by the inner light of awakening!
Jagdish P Dave