The Grand Predicament, by Nic Askew

एक विशाल उलझन, द्वारा निक अस्कू

नहीं अपनाये जाने का भय ही , ज्यादातर , जो भी हम करते हैं या जैसे भी हम हैं, को दिशा देता है|

अनजाने में , ये हमारे पूरे जीवन के अनुभव को निर्धारित कर सकता है|

हम में से ज्यादा इस बुनियादी बोध के साथ जीते हैं कि हम अभी तक पर्याप्त नहीं हैं|

और ये मान के चलते हैं जब तक हम पर्याप्त नहीं हो जाते तब तक हम वास्तविकता से अपनाए नहीं जायेंगे |

हम मानते हैं कि हमें अपना एक बेहतर स्वरुप बनना होगा|

पर हम कभी भी इस अपनाए जाने की अनवरत कोशिश में पर्याप्त नहीं बन पाते|

हम न ख़त्म होने वाली इस स्वयं सुधार की प्रक्रिया में खो जाते हैं|

क्या ऐसा तो नहीं है कि जिस वस्तु /स्थिति को बाहर हम खोजने की कोशिश कर रहे हैं, वो हर समय हमारे अन्दर ही थी ?

क्या ऐसा तो नहीं है कि हम अपना जैसा स्वरुप पाने में लगे थे, वैसे तो हम पहले से ही हैं |

एक न ख़त्म होने वाले खेल, जिसमे हम उसे जोड़ने का प्रयास कर रहे, जो टूटा हुआ है, के परे, इस ज्ञान का एक ऐसा गंभीर अनुभव है , कि कोई टूटा हुआ नहीं जिसे जोड़ने की आवश्यकता हो |

और यह ज्ञान कि हम जैसे हैं, पयाप्त हैं| और हम बिना किसी शर्त के अपनाने योग्य हैं|

फिर भी हम उसे खोज कर पाने की आशा नहीं कर सकते| यह उसकी प्रकृति में है, हमें खोजना | और बिना संदेह के हमारा उपभोग करना|

हमें कोई भी इसे पढ़ा नहीं सकता| हम इसे सीख भी नहीं सकते|

समर्पण के एक क्षण में , एक ऐसे क्षण में जिसमे हम कुछ खोज कर पाने की कोशिश नहीं कर रहे, वो अनुभव पुनः जागृत हो सकता है|

कुछ भी बदलता नहीं है, पर शायद सभी चीज़ें अलग लगती हैं|

और फिर सभी चीज़ों में अपना अंदरूनी बदलाव शुरू हो जाता है|

मुक्ति ( liberation), शांति और जो सब कुछ इसके पीछे होता है वो हमारे अन्तः करण की दृष्टि का कार्य होता है|

मनन के लिए बीज प्रश्न: आप इस धारणा से कैसा नाता रखते हैं कि हमारा सबसे गहन अनुभव ऐसे क्षण में पुनः जागृत होता है , जिसमे हम समर्पित हैं, और कुछ खोज कर पाने की कोशिश नहीं कर रहे ? क्या आप एक ऐसे गहन अनुभव की कहानी साझा कर सकते हैं जब आपने कुछ खोज कर पाने की कोशिश छोड़ दी हो और अपने आपको समर्पित कर दिया हो? आपको अपने अन्तः करण की दृष्टि में गड़े रहने (rooted) में किस चीज़ से सहायता मिलती है|

Nic Askew is a filmmaker. Excerpt from here.

Seed Questions for Reflection

How do you relate to the notion that our deepest experience can be re-known in a moment of surrender and non-seeking? Can you share a personal story of a profound experience of belonging when you stopped seeking and surrendered? What helps you stay rooted in the inner view?

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6 Past Reflections

Shyam

Mar 15, 2023

We are generally unsatisfied with our lives. We are continuously seeking a satisfaction outside of us . We feel we need to become something to feel more satisfied. In the process we have a feeling of lacking something. Not understanding and realising that all the satisfaction is already within us. We have what is needed by us. We need to tap into our inner view . We have to find the contentment with our inner self. All the joy and happiness is contained there.
Many times during our meditation there is this realization of complete contentment and an experience of being fully satisfied with our selves.
When we are rooted in our inner view , that feeling of contentment stays with us.

Manasi Mar 20, 2023

Thank you for articulating this Shyam, it resonates close to home

Ted

Mar 10, 2023

My individual ego (like my physical body) is never perfect- there is always some opportunity for growth, healing, and improvement- endlessly... Yet suffering results if an ego says "I am the perfect god, no improvement is possible". Only in the letting go described in this passage can we find the "profound experience of knowing that there is no one to fix". Of course ego then says "let's do that now, I'll kill this ego, and all will be well!"- But of course that is just adding another layer of ego, and an obnoxiously "holier than thou" ego at that! Recognizing within what isn't temporary, and does not come and go helps, allows facing the full emptiness that all of existence is, and has always been...

David Doane

Mar 10, 2023

I assume "our deepest experience" refers to the experience that we are enough as we are. I definitely believe that can be re-known in a moment of surrender and non-seeking. In my experience, moments of letting go and being are moments of awakening and seeing. Problem is it takes many of us a long time or a profound experience to have such moments. The profound experience for me wasn't of belonging but of realizing I'm okay and realizing it is much more important to me to be than to belong, which ironically resulted in me belonging more. What helps me stay rooted in the inner view is having learned that the stuff most important o me, mainly my truth, my happiness, my real self, is there.

Jagdish P Dave

Mar 9, 2023

We are looking for the Reality or the Truth using our outer eyes and feel disappinted or lost. We keep on seraching and seeking for somehing which inside ourselves. It's a futile and and never ending search. When we consciously let go of such seeking and striving and when we look within with inner eyes we instantly and effortlessly find what was already residing in our heart. It is a paradox: by letting go we get it.
There have been times in my life when by surrendering my ego I have experienced profound love, nourishment and fulfillment. I remember what my father used to say, "Look within and you will find what you're for. Look without and you will lose it." As I grew up I could see the wisdom in what he was saying.
I regularly practice meditation to listen to my inner voice. Introspecting, looking within, is also very helpful to me to saty rooted in the inner view.
Namaste.
Jagdish P Dave

Amy Mar 21, 2023

Amen! Beautifully portrayed! Thank you!
Namaste🌱