Being with people who are open and willing to learn together how to remove barriers to looking at reality without illusion, holding vision without compromise, and living with integrity and all its consequences. Intimacy, transparency, vulnerability, tenderness are qualities that support my own willingness to keep emerging from millennia of patriarchal training to live more and more of the future in the present, even as the systems around us are at odds with life.
Encountering feminism in the mid 1980s was a huge awakening. It was the first time that I realized that what we were experiencing and the world we were living in were not all that was possible. I learned, personally, through reading and thinking, ever since, that another world is indeed possible. Not only that, another world existed before what we now have was put into place. Ever since then, I have been getting more and more clarity and refinement in how I can both free myself from that legacy and contribute to the most transformation within and around me. Having an abortion in the late 1980s was a personal turning point, because it opened me up to feel. Learning how to mourn losses and, after discovering Nonviolent Communication in 1994, how to experience gratitude and openness, set me on a path that eventually brought me here. My spiritual path, since 1996, is the path of vulnerability. Inner freedom and capacity for interdependent living are the great joy that then emerges.
One that was done towards me was when I was on retreat with seven other people, all of us dealing with cancer. A night outing was being set to happen, and I was unable to join because of a personal limitation related to my relationship back home. When I finished the very difficult phone call I was having, I was amazed to discover that they all decided to wait for me. Coming from a childhood of being ostracized, I will never forget this moment of belonging.
I am at peace with knowing I will die. The only thing I want before is to have enough infrastructure held by enough caring hands so that the work will outlive me. It's close to being ready.
Visionaries of the world unite. You have nothing to lose but your loneliness.