SEED QUESTIONS FOR REFLECTION: What do you understand by the choice that is both 'now or never' and 'now and always'? Can you share a personal story of a time you faced this choice? What is a practice that helps you remember this choice in the midst of ceaseless activity?
The last paragraph says it all. Thank you.The only answer is yes here and now.
For me, this YES reflects my willingness to embrace the present moment and all that it contains. When I am unwilling, I push away what is and invite distraction or some busyness to shift my attention. If I am truthful with myself, my deepest intent is to live freely and love fully. I find this is only possible when I am fully present in the here and now. So, thank you for the reminder and the inspiration to stand by my deep intent.
I am just beginning to learn this “yes” that is within ‘now or never’ and ‘now and always.’ My connection to the moment, within this “yes,” is my mind moving from chaos into serenity. My mental chaos has always created my deep reactions. I would speculate and theorize, examining ideas from every angle and endlessly producing new interpretations, until I would lose the forest for the trees. Because there was no sense of certitude everything remain hanging in the air, even in a cloud of possibilities. So this “yes” is this acceptance of life exactly as it is. The “yes” is providing the ability to accept the conditions I am working with. The “yes” is offering a deeper serenity, even an opening to allow the energies of life to flow.
This “yes” for me is learning I no longer need to cling to anything, inner or outer. I particularly do not need to cling to the endless activity of my mind. This is a radical acceptance of life for me and is a spiritual injunction to “be in the world but not of it,” just as David wrote. I still experience my wanting to hold onto my ideas, so I am not fully within this mind that offers stillness and peace. I will say, though, I accept I am powerless and I beginning to plug into a new outlet that has no electrical current. It no longer matters other than I am awake, sober and in clear contact with my immediate experience.
Following your heart is a courageous choice - and to me that is the choice that at this very moment is 'now or never' and yet 'now and always'......in that I can choose my heart over my head every single moment, and yet this moment in itself is so precious, it will be lost if the choice is not made here....
Sensing my own body, meditation, reflection and journalling, lots of prayer - all of these are for me ways I connect to my heart and what it has for me....its a tricky and edge slope, for the mind can pretend to be the heart (and all those games!)....
The path of the heart need not even be the path of great joy necessarily (for me) - but it is a path with a heart.....it is a living path, a path I truly own....it is only to be experienced, not described :)
'Now or never' conveys to me urgency, that opportunity presents itself now and there is not time to waste, there is no guarantee that the opportunity will stay. 'Now and always' conveys to me that the choice entails crossing a line and there is no going back, as it's a life changing choice that lasts forever. The choice is between data or wisdom, between attachment or freedom, between things or spirit, between control or surrender, between doing or being, between busyness or stillness, between separation or unity, between yes or no. I face this choice ongoingly. For me it's not really a matter of giving up data, things, doing, but a matter of being in control of them rather than letting them be in control of me. It's an ongoing process of being in the world but not of it. Sometimes I make it. It helps me to remind myself of this and abide in awareness of it.
I hear the clear voice of YES when I am still. In that space of being, I feel the presence of YES. This YES is beyond my analytical mind and free from self-created afflictions. This YES is my never failing friend, the eternal beloved. It is beyond the right and the wrong. I feel this YES when I hold a sad and crying child in my arms. I feel it when a stranger holds me from falling down and when someone lets me cry and wipes my tears. I feel it when I laugh spontaneously by myself and with my family, friends, children and at times with strangers. It happens. I do not make it happen. I feel blessed to have such YES experiences everyday in my life. It is the sound of silence and I hear it when I my noisy mind is quiet, I see the ever present light when the self -created clouds fade away.
YES is the meeting place where we celebrate the gift of life together transcending divisive boundaries created by us..Blessed we are to receive and share such blessings. Life is good.
May we all get connected with the flow of YES. Namaste
Jagdish P Dave