I am able to look back a lot of incidents and events, which I then saw as negative and detrimental to my being, and now see that it was completely ok. The path from then to now has been fine, with the ups and downs. This realization now helps me deal with current events, the present moment- the people, the events even my state of mind -which I no longer tend to resist as before. I have stopped yearning for things, people and relationships and actually am mystified by the possibilit of NOW. It is a journey and a learning experience. I discover this inner peace, silence in and around me, even in the midst of chaos sometimes.