last year s.o read me tarot and kept saying I had all the best possibilities if only i trusted my self. so i began to plan how to become succesfull, accepted, make money etc Suddenly i asked myself what does it really mean to trust myself and i realized that the only self that could be trusted goes far deeper than the me that runs for outward things. I feel quiet now, I see my mind can detect all thought as being a thing outside not to be followed. I also sense that i have a desire to let go, that would be to trust myself. Something like to be in being. I don't know how i came to this so i don't know if there is really a lettin go or i am taken by an inner force?