The root of the root of my self is my essence, my soul, the extension of God that is me. I don't know when I became aware of the root of the root of my self. I think I was honing in on it for a long time, and got there maybe a dozen years ago, I think by being dissatisfied with beliefs I had, questioning, seeking, being open, listening to me and to the wisdom of teachers like Rumi, and letting go of beliefs that didn't make sense. A ruby embedded in granite means to me that I am an expression of God embodied in flesh and bone and material reality. What helps me to realize that is being open, listening to the wisdom of teachers, letting go, waking up, seeing.