My loving experience has helped me grow and enrich me through out my life and it is still offering me gifts. Loving freelry without holding has been the most difficult part of loving someone closely. I have had my own needs, desires, ideas and ideology and stubbornness. There have been times when we were in total sink and flowing together and there were times when we felt emotional tension in letting go of our insistence. As we grew older, letting go became easier, almost effortless. When I look back I see my drawbacks and limitations and a regrets for remaining blind and asleep. Thanks to the kindness and empathy of my soul-mate, I have grown and still growing. Though she is not with me anymore physically her presence still gently taps my shoulder and lovingly and softly whispers what I need to hear. My heart says love never dies.