The one word I'm here to say with all my being is notice. That implies being in the present and noticing your noticing while you are noticing. We practice opening are " fist clenched in wanting" by noticing an open unclenched fist is best (more peaceful) for you and everyone and then open it. Being open and aware is a way that is easier to say than to do. thank you for the opportunity to respond. I believe I am still too much in my head to experience surrender . The thought of being no one going nowhere I cherish but I do not deeply experience it. Warm and kind regards to everyone.