one experiences different things during different parts of the journey. take the Himalayan rivers. They start off as solid blocks of ice not moving then become glaciers moving slowly but with great power, onto trickles, then roaring streams, slowing don again as they reach the planes, dry in summers, flooding during the rains and so it goes on. At each stage it is just right.
Today I experience life as a vibrating mass of rocks, energy, fluids and what not..
My wife of 50 years has moved on to a different vibrational mode. I don't se her as gone. Even when she lived (in a body) we did not always vibrate at the same frequency.