Thank you Somik for writing and sharing your feelings.
For a very long time, I couldn't think of my Grandma without crying and immense regret.
And my heart would be so heavy and constricted.
Now, I can still miss her but I am more understanding and accepting of my feelings.
I used to worry about losing some friends who are older than me, and in the natural order, would probably leave the world before I do. Now I treasure them and give thanks for their presence in my life and try to learn and incorporate what they are offering me.
To accept the fragility of life and the endurance of love has been a lesson for me.