What stops me from being myself to myself? What stops me from being myself to yourself? What is in between me and me and between you and me? What is that in me which blocks my natural childlike curiosity to look at you and get connected with you?
To find the answer to my questions, I need to look within me with an open and present mind to see my original face. I need to set aside consciously the three clusters mentioned by Eugene Gendlin in this writing: my inner struggles going on in my mind, my mind preoccupied with what I need to do right now and the conventional way of saying hi to myself and others. These are the obstacles that obstruct me meeting me and really knowing me. I do not become intimate with myself. The same obstacles obstruct me to see you freshly, clearly and deeply and to be connected with you. A loss on both sides!
What helps me is very simple. I have set aside daily time for me to be with me inviting and greeting whatever and whoever shows up in my consciousness. This mindfulness meditation has helped me to do self-work to be whole and wholesome. It has helped me to relate to others in my life with openness, wonderment and freshness. Working with children in a school setting has been very beneficial to me.
I would like to conclude my reflections with words uttered by an Indian poetess by the name Meera. They are in Hindi. I translate them into English. "Remove the veil that you are holding inside yourself and you will find your Beloved." And that's what I am doing.