Why Silence Can Feel Agitating

We can all spend a lot of time thinking about things in the past (a realm in which we can do nothing to change,) or mutter about any number of things we're displeased with presently, but the thing to remember is that it is we,the thinkers, who determine those thoughts, floating haphazardly in our minds. No one drills a hole in our brain and pours thoughts in. WE allow which thoughts to entertain or bounce out...and we can do so by using our own brand of censorship. Nothing about the past can be done, unless there is some means of making a wrong right, but we can control the present moment. My little trick is this..."If it's a thought that troubles me, I imply say...O.K. I see you!!, followed by a fervent 'Goodbye!'" With negative irksome thoughts that plague me through and through, I counter with a "So what?" which allows some positive thoughts to take their place. The older I get, the wiser I get,...happy to say, but the older I get, the less time I have, so I truly want that time to be productive instead of wasted musing over whatever I think I missed, or could have done differently. I/We really are the gatekeeper of our own little brain's domicile. Why choose dark over light, while we still breath in and out? The choice is ours to make!

I don't feel I have control over or am the gatekeeper of the occurrence of all my thoughts. It seems like many thoughts just come. I do feel I have control over what I do with those thoughts, though even that is sometimes hard to implement.