Uncomfortable Place Of Uncertainty

I had a very unexpected chance to move into a place of uncertainty when I got fired after a 40 year student and then faculty affiliations at our local state university. I was brought up as a trainee in the system, would go on to work in the system and then would go on to teach in the system. When I told one of my graduate professors where I was going to train with a possibility of being hired, he said, "That is a school that is notorious for following the formula of - 'See One, Do One, Teach One.' It turned out he was wrong. I never Saw One. Instead I began with the Do One AND with the Teach One to 4 medical students. That early sign- in would be my unexpected exit from the University as well, since I was teaching 6 classes of medical students when I was fired. The uncertainty of- 'What next' hit me like a brick the first night. I spent that night largely awake and sitting with it , side by side. By morning I was mad, which is to say I was afraid. So I got curious about that fear. I loved my work with the students and I was going to miss them and what we taught them tremendously. Then I realized the currciulum has been similar across the last 14 years with some changes and additions, but nothing very novel apart from resiliency awareness for the students and training in Compassion and Care. I began to realize that this was an opportunity not a problem. I can apply what I know in other arenas and I can continue to explore who I am now in the safe and creative places like those provided by Service Space. Embracing change and seeking novelty helps me grow in this 7th decade of my life. I love to extend knowledge and creativity. I love to help others find their passions and I love to be with people who are passionate about what they do and dedicated to an awarness of how they spend their time. To walk with uncertainity is now a reality for many in these challenging times. To rise to that challenge is to be curious and to be open to different possibilities. In this way, we dance with uncertainty and in that dance of acceptance we begin to feel the flow in our lives. We just need to take the first step towards possibility and keep on seeking until we find or perhaps create what we hope to add into our now and carry forward into our future. Step by Step we surrender ourselves not only to the reality of uncertainty but also to an increased liklihood of increased joy.

What a touching story! Thank you for sharing your personal experience — your fears, hesitations, successes, and many other situations with us. I totally agree with you, because we all have to face both easy and difficult situations in order to grow and move forward. That is our daily reality!