I am currently trapped in a web of hurt I experience from one person. I can see my word 'trapped' as a language of self-pity, but I can't let go of the feeling. This person has been in my life from birth, and while they have had many positive influences on my life, they also subtly sabotage me every chance they get. I am afraid to / wise enough not to allow this person in my life, and yet my body is riddled with memories of them that continue to prevent the flow of love and instead generate pockets of fear, defensiveness, and danger. I am working with a therapist to let these feelings go, and I haven't made any progress except to be more aware of the extent to which this person's poison is thriving in me. I can forgive them logically, I know that we are all doing the best that we can, but I cannot let go of my fear, which means that I have not actually forgiven them. I have many others that I have forgiven, but I am stuck on this one, and I know that it is detrimental to my well being and it prevents me from truly living my purpose. Advice welcome! Thank you.
On Jun 12, 2023Shaila Menezes wrote :
Dear Chelsea , Sending you loving energies and courage to keep making progress . Everyday.
On Jun 13, 2023David Doane wrote :
Since you welcome advice -- I commend you for doing that -- my advice is: Don't say can't. Can't is false. You can let go of feeling hurt and fear and whatever, and you haven't or don't know how to or aren't ready to yet. Those feelings are probably wrapped up in experiences from very long ago that affected you deeply so are very hard to let go of, but you can.
On Jun 13, 2023Shyam wrote :
Dear Chelsea, sending you love and positive energies. Wayne Dyer ,says in the last para, that we have to remember the divinity within us. By forgiving the wrong doings, from the inner part of us, we not only free ourselves of the memories, we also fill up hearts with love , for ourselves, as well as the other.
On Jun 13, 2023Chelsea wrote :
Thank you for your advice and support Shyam, David, and Shaila! Much love to you all!