Irony Of Marriage

My primary partner and I have been together for 45 years. We have been married for 44. The description of the relationship cannot be captured by a handful of words - good - bad - challenging, supportive, etc. It is neither a success or a failure that we are still together. Whatever challenges or problems we have arise from our inability to bridge certain differences, and not the constraints of our marriage contract. Neither of us seeks freedom or personal fulfillment. For some of us, perhaps many of us, finding deep intimacy and deep connection is elusive and challenging. Creating a new marriage contract is unlikely to make much difference. Focusing on personal freedom and fulfillment may make us less free and fulfilled. Connecting with beauty, abundance, joy, playfulness and delight might help, but I certainly do not have much wisdom in these matters.