Years ago, I read the words...it took me years to see what these words were really saying...it is cyclical .
Life ..death and Resurrection....is an ever going returning and returning...not like I'd been brought up to believe....a bit like the earth was flat....and that changed my perspective....I could now see the good in the bad...and I realised it was all energy...coming in and going out....even the sea shore spits out what is no longer life giving.....and I knew it was up to how I chewed it out or could not digest it....no blame ...and I began to feel free.
I would love to be able to say truthfully that I too can drink the coffee....in a movie called City Slickers Billy Crystal got tired of Jack Palance continually repeating ..The secret of Success...and lifting one finger up...finally he asked him. "What is this secret of success...Jack Palance again put that finger up and replied. "The secret of success is doing ONE thing at a time".......discipline indeed.
It is not until our trust...the trust that has been corroded....by wounds unexpressed....can find that solvent....that erases all the rust...and our trust can then be shared with others because we know it is on solid ground.....until then...we will keep being stuck as in a revolving door...continuing to repeat and push our wounds out to whoever we connect with....when you begin to understand how loved you are....all else melts away,....you cannot give this to another.....but you can pray in trust that it will become ,..one single entirety.....
h Anger have discovered is my body telling me why it is in pain....so anger is a wake up call for meto listen to why my body can tell me this is unfair.....now because I do not find any merit in pain I work with the anger....and eventually find release......and true peace comes into my body.....this is not easy...but very rewarding.
Only after looking in and then becoming aware of what I was defending...I reflect on the old wound and try to see what was the root -cause, and start working on what must change about me.....usually it's about forgiveness...