I do the same thing! I never framed it as a gift to my future self. When I leave my home, I put everything in order and imagine how the house will look when I return. Sometimes, I put a treat on the counter like flowers or a sweet. I love that feeling when I enter my home and feel welcomed!
When I walk my dogs each morning, I try to remember to look up and see the vastness above me -- the sky being warmed by the sun, the hills. This helps cleanse my mind of the thousand thoughts that pull me out of the moment. When I breathe in the cool morning and exhale my thoughts releasing them to the universe, I start opening my heart. Sometimes, it opens big enough to embrace the whole of life. This is my daily practice.
This has so resonated with me. I figured out early in my marriage that it is not my job to make my husband happy -- that's his job. After a few years, I realized that it was also not his job to make me happy, that's MY job. I have grown so much in our relationship, not because he makes me happy, but because he can stoke every unconscious and unresolved issue in every dark corner of my being. Today, I am grateful and in love with my husband for helping with my growth which has released me to deeper connect with spirit, love of self and others and a rich life. The journey was not easy as I had to grieve the relationship I thought I wanted with him and trust that something better was ahead.
Beautifully said. Thank you for finding the words to express what I have not been able to. I too like to give freely and my motives have been questioned. Your well articulated understanding helps me find the words to understand myself. Thank you again.
On Oct 15, 2019 Norma wrote on Monet Refuses The Operation, by Lisel Mueller: