Life is a difficult place for most of us, I recall contemplating suicide after my daughter killed herself by hanging. I had bought a dog leash and I picked a sturdy tree in a peaceful place from which to hang myself. My thoughts went from tragedy to a place of quiet in the midst of chaos. I let go and let the emotions take hold of my heart, unbearable grief consumed me for several hours as I sat underneath this tree of eternal freedom. A small bird landed in front of me and I thought about the timing and about my grandson Elijah who was not even 3 years old yet. I thought about the name I gave my daughter HOPE, and a small voice gentle and kind said why don't you wait until tomorrow and see if maybe you can see if it is a better day. I did just that and I prayed thinking about the small joys in life and how I would like to see my grandson go to college and how I would like to know his heart and show him that life can be extraordinary through love. I wake up each day with HOPE and I do my personal best each day. One day has turned into several days. Life is still life on life terms but I know God has a reason for each one of us, so I continue to wake up and do another day.
Research codependency just simply google it and start healing from the condition. As women we are life givers so we are always giving and not receiving. Most of all you need to be kind and gently to yourself, maybe that means simply giving yourself permission to cry or be free in nature? Be gentle and kind to yourself now and learn the codependent landscape so that you can heal to your personal ability. Much love to you sister
Love is is the gateway to eternity and freedom. Perseverance, wisdom and understanding the landscape is key to overcome. Sub conscience mind before the age of 7 is the battle ground of the greatest battle ever faughtand cannot be conquered with arrogance, money position and superiority. There are to many people that with unhealthy minds. The weapons of mass destruction that are not afraid to die or destroy. This can only be changed with a desire to change and through love.,