The best way to find something is not to go looking for it is said in the Japanese culture as well. ( I am Japanese.) Too much focus on searching and moving will get you nowhere. Rather, better stop and let it go. And then it will come to you at the right time. This is balancing too much focus and neutralizing for making a natural flow, I think. The Chynenne way is to wait until your blindness disappears for the aha moment. It's interesting. It's like conscious of one's blindness and removing it by being conscious of it. I find my wife revealing that she doesn't care about my age of 38 and she was 28. That was being open to possibility in my case. I give my case to my guardian angels and let it happen. This helps in my case.
It's easier for me to do for my family members putting aside of my tasks. Maybe it's refuge. Still, I do and am happy when things get done. Just feel the burden of my tasks, that I need to finish them. So the author loving what's in front of her one at a time. I can try and I will. This is a positive act of loving rather than the state of loving naturally. "To seize the war inside", very wise to do so. "We never receive more than we can handle" is another positive belife that I want to hold more stronger. "Just do one at a time" is good to release my pressure from the piles of tasks.
To me, the sound of genuine means my true feeling inside. I have been searching for a local group of sports or hobbies for 5 years. They were Outrigger Canoe, Zumba, Hiphop, Veggie Garden, and tennis. I enjoyed them at some level, but not fully and I don't feel that I belong to any of them truly. When I felt selfishness in me, that's my ego and if it is for all including myself, then that's the inner voice collectively.
I think i experienced generative listening because of my environment, but I cannot remember. Or I may not have experienced it yet. I have to be conscious of 2nd me watching myself from above when I consciously choose my level of listening. It often says take a deep breath before start saying something and think while taking a deep breath. So maybe that, too.
I understand widenning our boundaries by praying peace of all humanity every day and night. Or in otherway around. Praying for peace of all humanity so often, we sometimes forget that I am a part of humanity and remind myself of that. In a way, we have a moment forgetting about me. I mean lost consciousness of me. I think that's losing botndaries.
I understand that there's a good balance of me and humanity consciousness when widenning boundaries.
I watched a video of everything in unity. Animals, insects, fishes, birds, air, water, sea, sky, forest, mountains and humans are all connected as one. It was enough for me to understand the unity. Sending gratitude in everyday prayers to all elements of nature is how my group of people discover unity of life in our each life including myself.
My mom tells me occasionally that she had a dream that a baby came down in the light that comes in between clouds and she caught it. It was before she found pregnant. So she says that I am from heaven to work for divines. This story gives light to my poetry.
I don't understand some spiritual teaching sometimes. That's like stepping over the gold bag. Sadly, I am quite not ready to find gold bags infact. it probably helps to think "Wait what's hidden?." "Let's find a gold"