Living life with minimum impact on planet have been or should I say was my life mission and so money was means to experiences and life in some way.
Past few years I have listen with open mind to people around me and understanding observing how money has power to buy comfort ( material kinds) and even emotional kinds or so we believe.
But I as dwell deeper as see for almost entire India breathing fresh clean Air has become about MONEY and water is and so many basic needs... cruel reality .
Such a powerful metaphor , being a balcony gardener growing my own food and composting ..it came alive or me.
I went through an simple issue of leg IT band streach and over period of time I "had"to start eating animal protein . this has was giving me lot of trpouble letting go my identity as an VEGAN and animal rights activist for almost 2 decades, I use to teach people to be vegan and be humane.. I see it this letting go on one identity has open door to new pragmatic was of living and still being compassionate , thank you and grateful . It is like this bucket... it has many things in it too tightly bound identity , now I am not vegan but human.
I believe we do not need any conscious effort to be must collect leaves and stories.. or anything we just need to super aware and connected to our spirit as being who we truly are " loving creatures" trying to survive and thrive and meet our needs of love and respect...
I was facing this exact question from last few day...like practical question
I am cleaning the dust and feeling what am I doing cannot I do all the above..more superior ( read the word carefully, how mind works) experiences and the my heart say may be it's true ...but who say's for dusting it's not true.
You just need to be in right frame of mind it to be true.
What is out there that will give you that dusting won't do
I am still sitting with this thought while everything else is so glormsied but small acts of care n repair are said to be not impo required.
There is need of balance of doing inside and outside.
Yes I have experienced both ...
The journey from brittle to supple was not an easy one
It takes courage and depth to pass through that fire ...to be open to forms of love never imaged never experienced...n that fills the heart in explainable ways and expression
I feel so acknowledged here
I have fail and failed and failed many time times in my effort to be creating / being living in eco-friendly place that are right for me and align
I have failed to save a pond in Kharghar did everything in my capacity and understanding to save it and felt so so miserable and every day I see and set of buildings being built there, I have failed to bring people together for long term commitment for environment...and I use to feel terrible about doing nothing
As always from childhood I had and still have this craving to do and be something for nature and now( as I realised anything will change only via people) for humans ( they are also major part of nature) .
I crave this feeling of community of doers who truly commit and make things happen however imprefect.
And then I use to think may be I was not enough
Now I think , I am enough I did ..I was in dust and heat ..put in efforts and emotions not only arm chair philosophy..so I take credit of failures with pride and happiness in my ❤️
Thank you 🙏