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Now I Become Myself, by May Sarton

FaceBook  On Oct 16, 2020 Xiaoshan Pan wrote:
Humans are easily susceptible to two evils.

"Whenever a group of people start believing they are better than everyone else, the results are always the same." This is the first evil, which has many variations. One example is "I against my brother. I and my brother against my cousin. I, my brother, and my cousin against the world"; another example is any form of sectarianism such asa group'snationalisticor cultural ambitions.

The second evil, is a mis-perception (often socially imposed)that we need to become somebody else (e.g., Albert Einstein, Bill Gates, Elon Musk, and my handsome neighbor) except to be ourselves. This perhaps is the greatest obstacle that consciousness evolution is facing on this planet.

Silence, by Jean Klein

FaceBook  On Jan 3, 2020 Xiaoshan Pan wrote:
As thinking becomes a disease, silence is the cure.

Stepping Over The Bag Of Gold, by Rachel Naomi Remen

FaceBook  On Jun 17, 2019 Xiaoshan Pan wrote:
Q: What is wrong with this world?
A: I am.

Do You Direct Your Mind Or Does Your Mind Direct You?, by Yogi Bhajan

FaceBook  On May 10, 2019 Xiaoshan Pan wrote:
This is only of the many occasions when I was directed by my mind and the results were quite surprising. One day by the time I got off work, I was tired, beaten, and nearly depressed. Disregarding I had a meditation meeting to attend in the evening, my mind was telling me to just go home and chill out. It came up with many good reasons that I should not attend the meeting and they all sounded quite reasonable. But, in the end I put myself together and went to the meeting because it was an commitment that I made to myself earlier. I went to the meeting and the session was great. By the time when the meeting was over, I was in a completely different mindset, happy, content, and relaxed.

However, I also have other experiences when I listened to what my mind told me (to be precise, what my body told me) to do instead, and it went well too.

So, this is not as simple as black and white.

Why Busyness Is Actually Modern Laziness, by Rasmus Hougaard and Jacqueline Carter

FaceBook  On Mar 17, 2019 Xiaoshan wrote:
Wise words, "Keeping ourselves busy so we do not have to face life." Keeping myself busy is easy. Facing life is not only hard but scary. So if I choose busyness, which I do often, is because it is easy. It kicks the can down the street so I do not have to do hard work and confront my fear, until perhaps when I am too old to stay busy or I am so ill and have to face my death. Not sure what could be done or thought of at that moment, except regrets and prayers for another chance of life.

The world around me is doing everything it can, to push me staying busy and 'engaged'. Competition of all sorts, job security, peer pressure, 140 TV channels, Clash Of Clans, deteriorating backyard, emails, FaceBook,and Twitter, are only a few among the countless distractions. I am in such a rush to go somewhere, or nowhere. This is, what being existentially lazy means to me.

Intentions And Effects, by Gary Zukav

FaceBook  On Oct 13, 2018 xiaoshan wrote:

 Life is an airplane, you either drive it or it is on autopilot. If you have not been driving, do not complain it did not take you to where you want to be. Also, when you drive, you live it; when you do not, you do not.


What Happens When We Wonder?, by Katie Steedly

FaceBook  On Mar 24, 2018 xiaoshan wrote:

 What a beautifully written piece, straight flowing out of an insightful heart. With the awareness and experience of wonder, 'self', the source of all our troubles, sufferings, separations, and illusions, fades into the background. In that moment, we are, I am, truly having a taste of what is meant to exist as a pure conciousness. 


Loving Your Enemy, by Brother David Steindl-Rast

FaceBook  On Aug 25, 2017 xiaoshan wrote:

Walk with me
Break some bread with me
Enemy, why can't you live with me
Who are you
What did I do to you
Wish I know 
Why can't I live with you
We are all born the same
Then we separate
Then the world falls apart
And blame turns to hate
We cannot contemplate
How far apart we are
There is always a way
To that place in your heart

Hated one
Just put down your gun
Done is done
Why can't we live as one
Feel no shame
The air we breath is the same
Heal the pain 
Why do we live in vain


The Grandest Vision For Humanity, by Riva Melissa Taz

FaceBook  On Jul 18, 2017 Xiaoshan wrote:

 "We must fight that humanity’s purpose was not just about sustenance and survival". Let's say all humans and all living things now all agree that sustenance / survival is not even a purpose of them, what change would that bring to us? Who will you be? How would you live your life? How would you be related to your environment, your friends, your family? 

Why would you want to fight what is here and now? We are free (maybe) to choose a purpose for our live but we do not need to fight life itself,  the very thing that everything else that we know is built on. May all beings be happy, and be peaceful. 


Be Alight with Who We Are, by Mark Nepo

FaceBook  On Jun 9, 2017 xiaoshan wrote:

The tricky part is to know who you are. who are you really? You are likely not who you think you are (there is too much illusion in there for the least). You are certainly not what others think you are (it is fairly easy to find evidence to support this). Nevertheless, these two sources pretty much are how we operate in daily life.  If you do not really know who you are, to whom you would be alright with?  :)


True Humility: Selfless Respect for Reality, by Costica Bradatan

FaceBook  On May 8, 2017 Xiaoshan wrote:

 It is a true struggle for me to practice humility. On one hand, it is similar to what Vipassana meditation teaches me "see reality as it is", which pull to down to the ground and snap me out of illusions created by self. On the other hand, I realize that how I see reality has true impact on the reality (i.e., how it would manifest ). When I am successful in doing that, it leads to self confidence, and subsequently (and unfortunately) pride and illusion... until a failure takes place. Maybe, I "think" I understand humility, but in fact I do not... that is the struggle.    


The Sacred Art of Pausing, by Tara Brach

FaceBook  On Apr 28, 2017 xiaoshan wrote:

An intentional pause is the first step to get us out of almost any dreadful situation, to see the bigger picture, to realize what actually is happening, and more importantly, to communicate with our body and inner self. Because we do not naturally just pause, it often is helpful to set up some sort of reminder, such as setting up a recurring alarm or ask a good friend to check in with you from time to time.


Why Meditate, by Suzanne Toro

FaceBook  On Feb 3, 2017 xiaoshan pan wrote:

I still remember clearly the summer of 2003 when I started the mediation practice the very first time in my life. The transformation in terms of my bodily and mental health, the shift of my perspective towards almost all things, and my personal and professional life, were enormous, for good and better. However, what one can say about meditation will have little meaning to people except the ones who have experienced these befits themselves. Similarly, one may describe all her can about the taste of an apple to someone who has never tasted one, and the meaning would never truly be delivered. So, all I can say is that what's being said in this article is true to me. Nothing more.


The Same Self Is in All of Us, by Eknath Easwaran

FaceBook  On Jan 25, 2016 xiaoshan wrote:

 "Who am I to judge a priest, beggar,
whore, politician, wrongdoer?
I am, you are, all of them already"  Song of Myself - Night Wish


Awareness is Profound Interest, by J. Krishnamurti

FaceBook  On Sep 21, 2015 xiaoshan wrote:

 "You condemn only when you have a standard, which means there is accumulation and therefore improvement of the self". You condemn only when you refuse to accept, in this case, refuse to accept the state where you are at the moment. How much have I been improved after so many years of striving for self-improvement? Have I ever got rid of that constant agitation, fear, insecurity, ready to re-act, ready to please...? comparing to that fearless younger self whom I once was, I am not sure what the years of self-improvement has been serving me... lol


Man's Most Important Mistake, by G. I. Gurdjieff

FaceBook  On Jun 26, 2015 xiaoshan wrote:

 There is change, and there is stability. Yin and Yang. The both are true and neither is illusion. Since everything rises and passing away, change is inevitable and any effort to holding on (refuse to change) meets with misery and hopelessness. Since there is a stability and repetition of events in the constant flow of changes, cognition/recognition and consciousness are possible, and meaning and order are possible - life is possible. I have many, many identities, similar to I have many clothes, shoes etc. But I is not Identities, unless you intentionally and unintentionally treat them as the same.  I offers stability and my identities change ... lol


It All Goes Wrong Anyway, by Ajahn Brahm

FaceBook  On Mar 13, 2015 xiaoshan wrote:

A surprising perspective. Although I think it goes a bit too extreme to the other side of the swing, there is a lot of truth in it. Right and wrong is our own construct, which is why 'the world is divided by the people who believe they are right." In one way, the world is perfectly fine as it runs its own course, until someone comes trying to fix it. In the other way however, life has its own course as well, and doing all these rights and wrongs is certainly part of the natural course of the universe, suffering included. I suffer, and I accept that I suffer. 


Is the Universe Friendly?, by Albert Einstein

FaceBook  On Aug 8, 2014 xiaoshan wrote:

 Awesome perspective! For those who think think the universe is not friendly, perhaps they meant the human world is not friendly :) 


Maybe, Said the Farmer, by Author Unknown

FaceBook  On May 15, 2014 xiaoshan wrote:

 Living a life free from specific expectation, judgment, and (mostly fear-based) survival instinct (for preserving both one's physical body and non-physical ego), what would it be like?   


Should We Spend Time Like Money?, by Stefan Klein

FaceBook  On Mar 28, 2014 xiaoshan pan wrote:

Frankly speaking, I have no idea what time is. If the existence of time is a fact, then it was there long before the inventions of clocks and calendars, and the earth going around the sun, then we probably are getting it all wrong today with the internal/external time stuff. If the existence of time is not a fact but a human psychological construct, then perhaps one way of dealing with it is not dealing with it at all, because of its non- factual- existence. I am wondering Is it possible to live a life without time?      


Your Life Cannot Go Wrong, by Jeff Foster

FaceBook  On Feb 23, 2014 xiaoshan pan wrote:

Deal Charles, this is not about that starving teenager in Somalia, or about the mutilated woman. This is not about you, or about me. So, one cannot say "it happened FOR you" because it is not about "you."  However, if one realizes what this "you" truly refers to, then it all makes sense - it is about that starving teenager in Somalia, and about the mutilated woman.  It is about you, and about me.  Yes, it happened for you too.


Your Life Cannot Go Wrong, by Jeff Foster

FaceBook  On Feb 13, 2014 xiaoshan pan wrote:

 Absolutely amazing insight! I am in awe.


Can You Love The One Who..., by Leah Pearlman

FaceBook  On Jan 25, 2013 Xiaoshan wrote:
Is love acceptance, or not? 
Is love being compassionate, or not?
Is love conditional, or not?

Is the love of yours the same of mine, or not?

What Astrology Teaches Us, by Isabel Hickey

FaceBook  On Aug 31, 2012 xiaoshan wrote:
This is a long stretch between the predictive nature of astrology and human attitude - nevertheless a very unique perspective. I liked it.

Is the Universe Friendly?, by Albert Einstein

FaceBook  On May 5, 2012 Xiaoshan wrote:
 Is universe friendly? I truly do not know the answer. I will try not even come up with an answer. 

What I Learned In Africa, by Henning Mankell

FaceBook  On Feb 20, 2012 xiaoshan wrote:
 A good listener is one who also does not easily judge anything... or self opinionated.

Fool Realization, by Steve Bhaerman

FaceBook  On Oct 6, 2011 Xiaoshan wrote:

"If I engage into actively propagate a set of lovely ideas, which, by definition, are non-facts."

Ideas turn into reality, or facts, all the time. Look around we would see a good percentage of our reality were merely ideas before. Some of these ideas turned into tangible facts such as the Golden Gate Bridge (it was an engineer's dream for years), and some turned into less tangible (or intangible) facts such as many of the social changes occurring around us but they are equally real.

"Will that transform my experience of life?" Yes. 

Neverthless there are ideas that perhaps would never turn into 'facts' of any sort. But, as long as they are part of your experience, they are transforming you, with, or without your realization.


Fool Realization, by Steve Bhaerman

FaceBook  On Oct 2, 2011 Xiaoshan wrote:

Not too long ago read about a seemingly very serious social scientist claims that "the real reason that a man and a woman would get married is because that is the most economic way to satisfy one's sexual desire". It made me want to laugh and weep at the same time... Thank you Bhaerman.


Balancing Vision and Routine, by Bhikkhu Bodhi

FaceBook  On Jun 11, 2011 xiaoshan wrote:

The true insight is this one, "[O]ur minds are keyed to fix upon the new and distinctive".


Flow of Money, by David Korten

FaceBook  On Jun 6, 2011 xiaoshan wrote:

Money or not, choose to live a fear free and meaningful life, we can.


New Atoms Doing the Same Dance, by Richard Feynman

FaceBook  On May 15, 2011 xiaoshan wrote:

This is one of the most insightful writings I have ever read.

You throw some atoms together in a way, call it a  'car', and drive it to a city in far distance. You throw the some atoms together in another way, call it a 'rocket', and shoot it to the moon. Perhaps later on you notice the same set of atoms, forming a thing called 'rabbit', hopping into the woods...

What, then, is the meaning of it all? 



Full Effort is Full Victory, by Eknath Easwaran

FaceBook  On May 10, 2011 Xiaoshan wrote:

"If you cannot run, walk. If you cannot walk, crawl." If you do not know what to do, sit, in silence.


Full Effort is Full Victory, by Eknath Easwaran

FaceBook  On May 8, 2011 Xiaoshan wrote:

"If you cannot run, walk. If you cannot walk, crawl."


Before You Know What Kindness Really Is, by Naomi Shihab Nye

FaceBook  On Apr 17, 2011 Xiaoshan wrote:

A dying man’s words are kind.“ - Chinese proverb


A 9-Year-Old's Hidden Self, by Jacob Needleman

FaceBook  On Apr 7, 2011 xiaoshan wrote:

"We sat together, holding hands. No words were said...that was a perfect moment in my life."


My Stroke of Insight, by Jill Bolte Taylor

FaceBook  On May 25, 2009 xiaoshan wrote:

This passage describes a simple yet powerful truth that can only be understood through personal experience.   See full.

This passage describes a simple yet powerful truth that can only be understood through personal experience. 

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Bringing the Vacation Spirit into Daily Life, by Robert S. Hartman

FaceBook  On Feb 17, 2009 xiaoshan wrote:
If you are neither what you think you are nor what others think you are, then who are you?

Give Your Story As An Offering, by Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee

FaceBook  On Dec 11, 2008 Xiaoshan Pan wrote:
Wait till you feel your own story like a dream, like a possibility, and then give it to the earth as an offering...

Tell Me Your Story, by Dan Gottlieb

FaceBook  On Jun 10, 2008 Xiaoshan wrote:
Tell me your story, I will listen and then be quiet.

The Way You Live Today, by Omraam Mikhaël Aïvanhov

FaceBook  On Apr 29, 2008 Xiaoshan wrote:
I will live a perfect day, today.

The Greatest Danger Before You, by Granny D

FaceBook  On Nov 20, 2007 xiaoshan pan wrote:
What a shocking truth! I have to agree that "By far - one of the most compelling, lively and lucid thought-of-the-week pieces I've read." Thanks, Nipun "I want people to die at 90 instead of dying at 20 and being buried at 90." Thanks, Darshni.

The Opportunity Aging Offers, by Ram Dass

FaceBook  On Aug 28, 2007 Xiaoshan wrote:
We are certainly not the social roles that we play. It is not too late to realize this in old age; but it is much better to realize it when we are still young.

Beyond the Wall of Knowledge, by Adyashanti

FaceBook  On Jul 31, 2007 Xiaoshan wrote:
"That self only existed in the accumulation of knowledge and experience." Again, you are neither what you think you are nor what others think you are. Well said, Adyashanti.

Releasing Your Specifications, by Gary Zukav

FaceBook  On Jul 3, 2007 Xiaoshan wrote:
You are neither what you think you are nor what others think you are -- those are specifications :-)

Questioning Our Questions, by Eric Vogt, Juanita Brown, David Isaacs

FaceBook  On May 8, 2007 Xiaoshan wrote:
This is a very special stage of my life: I watch my days pass, and hardly any question arises...except this one "where did all my questions go?" I am grateful, Viral. I like Conrad's article very much. Many thanks to Conrad.

The Seven Traits of Creative People, by Deepak Chopra

FaceBook  On Mar 31, 2007 Xiaoshan wrote:
Well said.

Shifting Your Relationship With Pain, by Jon Kabat-Zinn

FaceBook  On Mar 16, 2007 Xiaoshan wrote:
In this faraway land, whenever something wrong occurs, a message is sent to the king of the land. What would the king do? There is a reason for every pain.

Witnessing: A Form of Compassion, by James O'dea

FaceBook  On Mar 14, 2007 Xiaoshan wrote:
Quantum physics again: There is no difference between an observer and a witness. Work is done at the moment when one observes without judgment.

Ego and the Illusion of Darkness, by Swami Nithyananda

FaceBook  On Mar 2, 2007 Xiaoshan wrote:
Not to talk about it. Not to think about. Just, forget about it.

Evolving From Hope to Hopelessness, by Margaret Wheatley

FaceBook  On Feb 23, 2007 Xiaoshan wrote:
Life was, is, and will be full of uncertainty and unpredictability regardless how one may struggle – you cannot change that. Then it is clear that ‘hopelessness’ can be a way to overcome the inevitability of fear and insecurity.

The Most Precious Freedom, by David Foster Wallace

FaceBook  On Feb 3, 2007 xiaoshan wrote:
Freedom does not exist when we are on Autopilot. However, Being on Autopilot is the most nature state of mind. When consciousness manages to wake up...