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Giving it All up to the Stillness

--by Marion Wilson-Gruzalski (Jul 18, 2006)


I realize that I have spent much of my life waiting for inspiration. Ever since I was a child, I have had an Inner Voice that has guided me through these many years, through all the difficult and painful times, and has provided me with inspiration, guidance and practical help in all the good times and creative times of my life.

But there have been times, sometimes long periods of time, when this Voice has grown still. Gradually I learned that when my Inner Voice grew still, then it was time for me to be still, to sit quietly and wait. These periods of waiting have always turned out to be some of my deepest teachings. They ceased being my "waiting" periods and became transformed into periods of deep "listening."

The more still my Inner Voice, the more still my mind has to become so that I can listen more intently. The quieter my mind becomes the richer each moment becomes. I remember initially I would be concerned that I had done something wrong. Then I would get depressed, impatient, frustrated. But gradually I gave it all up to the stillness. There have been periods when I have had to listen for months.

Then finally, when I have to completely let go of all my resistance, when all I can DO is BE -- very, very deep inside there is a slight movement and my heart leaps. I can feel the inner joy begin to arise slowly. The long quiet winter is drawing to a close. I know that Spring is coming.

--Marion Wilson-Gruzalski


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On Dec 11, 2006 osei frank wrote:
i am very greatful to join you as penpls

On Jul 26, 2006 Nipun wrote:

Wednesday circle of sharing notes: Monkey puts his fist in the jar, grabs the nuts and can't remove his fist. Empty hand release him, but a tight fist traps. That's our story. Anias Nin: "Life shrinks in proportion to one's courage." Courage is courage to embrace the unknown. "waiting" has a negative connotation generally When we need help, why doesn't the inner voice get louder? Jealousy is the last sin to go; ambition leads to jealousy. Am I ambitious? I used to be but now some of emptying has occured in me. Inspiration that makes you not have plan B -- that's real inspiration. And it isn't a remarkable, external event. College freshman: don't know what to do but maybe I should just wait patiently? There are different levels of stillness. God sells. An athiest won't get elected. Survival, freedom and hope. That's inspiration for Barak Obama. Singing requires being quiet. One has to keep trying. Takes a lot of patience. In solitude, other people's voices d  See full.

Wednesday circle of sharing notes:

  • Monkey puts his fist in the jar, grabs the nuts and can't remove his fist. Empty hand release him, but a tight fist traps. That's our story.
  • Anias Nin: "Life shrinks in proportion to one's courage." Courage is courage to embrace the unknown.
  • "waiting" has a negative connotation generally
  • When we need help, why doesn't the inner voice get louder?
  • Jealousy is the last sin to go; ambition leads to jealousy.
  • Am I ambitious? I used to be but now some of emptying has occured in me.
  • Inspiration that makes you not have plan B -- that's real inspiration. And it isn't a remarkable, external event.
  • College freshman: don't know what to do but maybe I should just wait patiently?
  • There are different levels of stillness.
  • God sells. An athiest won't get elected.
  • Survival, freedom and hope. That's inspiration for Barak Obama.
  • Singing requires being quiet. One has to keep trying. Takes a lot of patience.
  • In solitude, other people's voices drain out and I can listen to my own voice.
  • In winter, one friend would go out and come back in. Why? "Just in case the sun comes up, I wanna be ready."
  • Cooking quietly yields better food than otherwise. What about things more involved with cooking?
  • 1% inspiration, 99% inspiration.
  • My gorilla mind: I think I'm in cage but the door is wide open.
  • When I put effort to listen, I can't listen too much.
  • Deep listening of others is a good analogy for how to be with yourself.
  • Intuitive moments are moments of inspiration
  • ICICI cpresident -- real inspiration always comes in a gap
  • A. R. Rahman: I don't write these songs; inspiration comes and I write.
  • Not just one-time inspiration but trick is in regularly finding it.
  • I am "looking" for inspiration, not waiting
  • Which college should I go to? "I know but I'm not going to tell you," my college advisor says. 'Any hints?' 'Goto the top of the hill. After all, isn't intuition thousands of years of evolution packed into one moment.'
  • Health: complete well being of physcial, social, emotional and spiritual being.
  • Carlos castaneda: "find your spot". Went to sleep after frustration and that his spot.
  • It's a "constant struggle to surrender"
  • Two types of inspiration: inspiration coupled with ambition, deeper inspiration that stems from stillness
  • To remove a blockage, to remove it, resort to a cherished relationship -- unconditional love.
  • I no longer wait for inspiration; i come to wednesdays. :)
  • "sitting quitely doing nothing, spring comes by itself, grass grows by itself."

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