Sleep tight, you express “standing in the gap.” This is a very good understanding of what I was writing. Much of the time this “gap” feels like an existential void, meaninglessness. Then there are those moments the “gap” creates a deeper and more essential self. When I can be this inner-observer it seems to be a higher state, and yet this dark force within does not want me to be aware of anything higher. The best I can tell is learning to accept the conditions I am working with, relaxing, and allowing the energies of life to flow within this darkness. This creates a serenity within the “gap” seems to allow me to not feel separate from others.
There seems to be no particular image or idea of myself here. There is just this delightful contact with you and you with me, which you express. What is true here cannot be separated, a creative flow and cannot be otherwise. So maybe we are learning the “gap” is the source of everything, the core of our true identity, creating and sustaining us. It is simply resting in this dynamic force that melts down our barriers and boundaries. This sense of separateness is dissolving, a bright light, and if I may say is your love.
I hope I am not reading too much in what you are saying and truly appreciate your love itself which dissolves the sense of separation. I could write more, yet I do not want my feelings and impulses to be unseemly and unflattering. I just believe we are communicating in a direct way, reflecting our inner essence, and allowing it to be. And while this is all seriousness there is also this sense that none of it is serious at all Just a spontaneous response, an opening, and a meaning beyond what I intended to create.
On Nov 21, 2014 Syd wrote :
Sleep tight, you express “standing in the gap.” This is a very good understanding of what I was writing. Much of the time this “gap” feels like an existential void, meaninglessness. Then there are those moments the “gap” creates a deeper and more essential self. When I can be this inner-observer it seems to be a higher state, and yet this dark force within does not want me to be aware of anything higher. The best I can tell is learning to accept the conditions I am working with, relaxing, and allowing the energies of life to flow within this darkness. This creates a serenity within the “gap” seems to allow me to not feel separate from others.
There seems to be no particular image or idea of myself here. There is just this delightful contact with you and you with me, which you express. What is true here cannot be separated, a creative flow and cannot be otherwise. So maybe we are learning the “gap” is the source of everything, the core of our true identity, creating and sustaining us. It is simply resting in this dynamic force that melts down our barriers and boundaries. This sense of separateness is dissolving, a bright light, and if I may say is your love.
I hope I am not reading too much in what you are saying and truly appreciate your love itself which dissolves the sense of separation. I could write more, yet I do not want my feelings and impulses to be unseemly and unflattering. I just believe we are communicating in a direct way, reflecting our inner essence, and allowing it to be. And while this is all seriousness there is also this sense that none of it is serious at all Just a spontaneous response, an opening, and a meaning beyond what I intended to create.
May inner peace be with you!