Avriane, I truly agree with you that what I wrote is similar to others. Maybe I feel shameful and misunderstood by people, yet that does not make me unique. It is simply good you are being real with me. I also know from experience my ego-activity tries to make my personality feel real and valuable. My ego energy needs to build up my self-image. Therefore, realness is tricky, as I need to see if I am investing energy into cultivating my persona or am I a person embodying real authenticity. Both are real, one is building an image (successful career, presenting myself favorably, achieving goals) and the other is my value is not based on a particular achievement (Essential identity). To me, being real can be a concept or a belief and the other side it is no concept or belief. Being real can be cut off from the ground of Being and the other side Being itself is the source of my true identity. The rich consciousness or being real is being aware I am not completely in control of either.
I will look into Carol Carnes’ daily message and again appreciate you being real with me. There is nothing more satisfying, your realness meeting my realness, and liberating us both from this role we must play.
On Nov 13, 2014 Syd wrote :
Avriane, I truly agree with you that what I wrote is similar to others. Maybe I feel shameful and misunderstood by people, yet that does not make me unique. It is simply good you are being real with me. I also know from experience my ego-activity tries to make my personality feel real and valuable. My ego energy needs to build up my self-image. Therefore, realness is tricky, as I need to see if I am investing energy into cultivating my persona or am I a person embodying real authenticity. Both are real, one is building an image (successful career, presenting myself favorably, achieving goals) and the other is my value is not based on a particular achievement (Essential identity). To me, being real can be a concept or a belief and the other side it is no concept or belief. Being real can be cut off from the ground of Being and the other side Being itself is the source of my true identity. The rich consciousness or being real is being aware I am not completely in control of either.
I will look into Carol Carnes’ daily message and again appreciate you being real with me. There is nothing more satisfying, your realness meeting my realness, and liberating us both from this role we must play.