Thank you me, as you appear to be communicating how I plant seeds of my own interiority and I need to give myself credit for this. You are probably right, yet I am also doing my best to not take special satisfaction in my achievements. The reason I am not doing this because my pride gets in the way and it creates this vainglory in my goodness. My childhood background is agriculture, specifically cattle ranching, and in this environment everyone took pride in being the victor, the superior person of a stronger will. Pride was constantly at stake. Pride is also denial. It is the inability to admit I am hurting inside. Pride is even this unwillingness to acknowledge my suffering and my neediness. So in my writing I am breaking my pride as my fundamental denial.
However, denial can also deny the good, which is what you are communicating. It seems to balance this scale between denial (pride) and acceptance of my good is self-acceptance. Self-acceptance feels like the starting point that makes everything else possible. It feels like self-acceptance stops this need to be false about myself and also stops grandiose fantasies. Self-acceptance is simply acknowledging I am a limited human being and taking responsibility to develop myself within my limitations.
Acceptance, self-acceptance, is modest and direct. The energy from it is being nothing less and nothing more. Acceptance is real. Self-acceptance feels like this interior person can adapt. It feels like it is not even a matter of changing attitudes or deepening my values, but learning to have self-acceptance in what I am not. Self-acceptance embodies the real, real authenticity. It feels like you are communicating it does not matter how many accomplishments I pile up, my value is this ability to be myself, deeply and completely.
I will say, I am beginning to understand my value is not based on a particular achievement. I suspect when self-acceptance becomes my full value, with no inflated notion of myself, the depths of my heart will be expressed. This self-acceptance is learning to be truly myself and to love simply and genuinely. This love creates this flow from within and right now and it is independent of doing and even this need for an accomplishment. Everything is happening together and this freedom helps to take away suffering. It is place to rest in self-acceptance.
Your presence is significant, me, and the meaningfulness you offer is simply my learning to rest in my true identity. Your presence and your preciousness offer hope and she is in the power of the Now, as Eckhart Tolle could say. And thank you me for having a caring and good heart, as this is truly your value, your special value where you offer this dynamic hope!
On Oct 10, 2014 Syd wrote :
Thank you me, as you appear to be communicating how I plant seeds of my own interiority and I need to give myself credit for this. You are probably right, yet I am also doing my best to not take special satisfaction in my achievements. The reason I am not doing this because my pride gets in the way and it creates this vainglory in my goodness. My childhood background is agriculture, specifically cattle ranching, and in this environment everyone took pride in being the victor, the superior person of a stronger will. Pride was constantly at stake. Pride is also denial. It is the inability to admit I am hurting inside. Pride is even this unwillingness to acknowledge my suffering and my neediness. So in my writing I am breaking my pride as my fundamental denial.
However, denial can also deny the good, which is what you are communicating. It seems to balance this scale between denial (pride) and acceptance of my good is self-acceptance. Self-acceptance feels like the starting point that makes everything else possible. It feels like self-acceptance stops this need to be false about myself and also stops grandiose fantasies. Self-acceptance is simply acknowledging I am a limited human being and taking responsibility to develop myself within my limitations.
Acceptance, self-acceptance, is modest and direct. The energy from it is being nothing less and nothing more. Acceptance is real. Self-acceptance feels like this interior person can adapt. It feels like it is not even a matter of changing attitudes or deepening my values, but learning to have self-acceptance in what I am not. Self-acceptance embodies the real, real authenticity. It feels like you are communicating it does not matter how many accomplishments I pile up, my value is this ability to be myself, deeply and completely.
I will say, I am beginning to understand my value is not based on a particular achievement. I suspect when self-acceptance becomes my full value, with no inflated notion of myself, the depths of my heart will be expressed. This self-acceptance is learning to be truly myself and to love simply and genuinely. This love creates this flow from within and right now and it is independent of doing and even this need for an accomplishment. Everything is happening together and this freedom helps to take away suffering. It is place to rest in self-acceptance.
Your presence is significant, me, and the meaningfulness you offer is simply my learning to rest in my true identity. Your presence and your preciousness offer hope and she is in the power of the Now, as Eckhart Tolle could say. And thank you me for having a caring and good heart, as this is truly your value, your special value where you offer this dynamic hope!