Always, thank you deeply and yes this inner life has big traps in it. When everything becomes this intolerable idea, even God, I can literally throw out the baby with the bathwater: faith, hope, love, and even kindness. Sometimes I get attached to my torment and then I get cynical about all my relationships. So it seems when my faith becomes courage, this courage becomes my support. Also this ground is touchy because everything is intense and my anger just burns. I do not like this vulnerable point. Maybe the gift is I am truly not that different from anyone else nor am I an outsider, as we all struggle with faith within suffering.
On Sep 24, 2014 Syd wrote :
Always, thank you deeply and yes this inner life has big traps in it. When everything becomes this intolerable idea, even God, I can literally throw out the baby with the bathwater: faith, hope, love, and even kindness. Sometimes I get attached to my torment and then I get cynical about all my relationships. So it seems when my faith becomes courage, this courage becomes my support. Also this ground is touchy because everything is intense and my anger just burns. I do not like this vulnerable point. Maybe the gift is I am truly not that different from anyone else nor am I an outsider, as we all struggle with faith within suffering.