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To Have Without Holding

On Oct 29, 2013 Elizabeth wrote:

      When I was younger 

my eyes would never close
my heart would never function
and for what reason, nobody knows

    When I grew older

my eyelids were falling 
my heart was nothing 
I think it was there

    It's weird because

I didn't seem to have feelings
every salty whisper
it wouldn't peel my self esteem 
even as the air grew crisper 

     I never knew what this was all about

why I felt like a vampire
creeping in the daylight
the smile that I wore
from ear to ear
it was never here

    It confused me when

people asked what was wrong with me
because that's the one question
that I could never answer
the confusion,
it spread like cancer

     The cherry red tears

there were enough to fill an ocean
each sour bullet
coated in emotion 
emotion of what kind

     I grew up wondering

who I was and
what I was forcing myself into believing 
I used to tell my self
if you trick yourself into thinking you're happy
for long enough

You'll be happy. 

On Jan 7, 2014 Amy wrote:

 Just read Elizabeth, again.  Jesus have and hold Elizabeth for me.  I want to go to sleep knowing You are caring for her.  All my love to you sister.


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