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To Have Without Holding


On Oct 29, 2013 Elizabeth wrote:

      When I was younger 

my eyes would never close
my heart would never function
and for what reason, nobody knows

    When I grew older

my eyelids were falling 
shut
my heart was nothing 
but
I think it was there

    It's weird because

I didn't seem to have feelings
every salty whisper
it wouldn't peel my self esteem 
even as the air grew crisper 

     I never knew what this was all about

why I felt like a vampire
creeping in the daylight
the smile that I wore
from ear to ear
it was never here

    It confused me when

people asked what was wrong with me
because that's the one question
that I could never answer
the confusion,
it spread like cancer

     The cherry red tears

there were enough to fill an ocean
each sour bullet
coated in emotion 
but
emotion of what kind

     I grew up wondering

who I was and
what I was forcing myself into believing 
I used to tell my self
if you trick yourself into thinking you're happy
for long enough


You'll be happy. 



On Jan 7, 2014 Amy wrote:

 Just read Elizabeth, again.  Jesus have and hold Elizabeth for me.  I want to go to sleep knowing You are caring for her.  All my love to you sister.

 

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