Lately, I have realized that the main cause of my unhappiness, annoyance, frustration, and mental turmoil is my inability to see that my human life, from birth to death, with all the events I go through in time, with all my interactions with people, animals, and other animate and inanimate objects, with all the circumstances that I face, desirable or undesirable from my perspective, all my sense of good health and well-being as well as illness and physical suffering, all my satisfaction of the fulfillment of my desires and disappointment of unfulfilled desires, is not separate from the environment that surrounds me and forms the "life on earth." So, when I insist on this "life on earth" to be exactly the way I want it to be instead of marveling at the constant interplay of opposites (some to my liking and some not) I tend to be frustrated, annoyed and unhappy. If I can train my mind to accept this reality of "life on earth" and enjoy watching the "beautiful chaos" all around me even when I am going through adversity and suffering, then I will truly experience "stillness" no matter where I am and what is happening around me.
Is it possible to experience true nothingness as a human being who is alive? Whatever state we can reach (through the practice of mindfulness, yoga, meditation, silence, gentleness, or just by chance, etc.) that we call the state of nothingness is "something" that we distinguish as different from the state of "not nothingness" as perceived by us. I may feel something that I recognize as very unique for me and I give it a name "nothingness." Somebody else hears the word "nothingness" and assigns it to a unique feeling for him or her. Can we be sure that these two unique feelings of "nothingness" of two different human beings are the same? Is "nothing" truly different from "something." Everything seems unknowable to human beings when you dive sufficiently deep into it. We will always live our life in a world that is unique for each of us. Let there be peace in it!
On Jul 28, 2015 Bijay wrote on The Surrender Experiment, by Michael Singer:
The entire universe and all the physical entities and events occurring in it in space and time involving matter and energy as perceived by the senses of a human being plus all the abstract entities involving emotions, thoughts, desires, conclusions, and concepts etc. occurring in his or her mind can be summed up and labeled as "Oneness." The true nature of this "Oneness" is unknowable (I believe) whether you are a so called "enlightened" person or not. As such, who is there to surrender and to whom? It s hard for me to grasp the idea behind "surrender experiment."